Finding Hope
~Hi Friends~
How to begin a post like this, I’m not really sure. The last week I have seen my darkest moments, despair, hopelessness, my faith and strength tested, spirits crushed…..
Our sweet and spunky Grayson was diagnosed with Kawasaki Disease. (link to video that explains the disease) We have been at Rady’s Children’s Hospital in the ICU with the best team of doctors and nurses. Every hour changes, sometimes for the best, sometimes for the worst, his heart is fighting, he is in pain, lots of it and I can’t take it away, it’s not fair, please pray for him.
This song is for our Grayson because we will wait, we will not leave, we will be strong. God will fix your flesh, your heart, your joints and your eyes. As the wind blew this horrible disease into our lives it will just as easily blow it away, we will not give up, we love you!
And I came home
Like a stone
And I fell heavy into your arms
These days of darkness
Which we’ve known
Will blow away with this new sun
And I’ll kneel down
Wait for now
And I’ll kneel down
Know my ground
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
So break my step
And relent
You forgave and I won’t forget
Know what we’ve seen
And him with less
Now in some way
Shake the excess
But I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
So I’ll be bold
As well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh
And fix my eyes
That tethered mind free from the lies
But I’ll kneel down
Wait for now
I’ll kneel down
Know my ground
Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
And bow my head
Keep my heart slow
Cause I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
Mommy; “I just want to be happy again, I want to go home”
~Soon baby soon~
I have been leaving quick updates on my FB page, it seems the easiest way for now. How can one explain how humbled, grateful, and blessed we are by your words, e-mails, notes, encouragement, and kind gestures…..THANK YOU!
Ray and Kristin
Our grandaughter was diagnosed with this 2 years ago. Today you would never know. She is a happy healthy 12 year old. There is lots of hope. Hang in there.
We are praying hard and often for you. Our son is about the same age so my heart is heavy for you.
Been thinking and praying for Grayson and your family every day. XO Just is heartbreaking to see a child so helpless and ill. Big hugs to you.
Can’t wait to see the update that your little man is home… continuing to pray!
Praying for your sweet son and family.
I have been praying constantly for your sweet boy and your whole family. Sending love and lots of hugs.
that first comment gives lots of hope. fingers crossed for you and sending love across the oceans.
Fiona x
Praying for your family and sweet Grayson!!!
Blessings,
Cindy
Sending good wishes for you and your family.
I have been following your updates on Facebook and I’ve been praying for your little guy and your family. I hope he starts to feel better very soon. Thoughts and prayers your way~gina
Kristin, Ray, and Boys: may you feel god’s warm loving arms around your shoulders during this time, may you feel his love greater than ever before amen.
I’m praying for you all. It’s so kind & brave of you to share the details of Kawasaki disease. May god bless your sweet son & may he heal soon. Please keep us in the loop, as we are hoping for the best outcome.
Praying for you Grayson and your family.
Girlfriend, I awoke, both yesterday & today & my first thoughts were of Grayson. I’m lifting him & you all up to God several times a day. So, so, so many are praying for him. He is in His hands. Love you! Be strong, and know that we are here if you need more strength.
Praying for your beautiful little boy and your entire family.
I’m so sorry you and your family are going through this! I’ve been thinking about you…prayers for you all!
Jo-Anna
All of your family is in my prayers! Hoping a speedy recovery is on it’s way!
My prayers are with you and your family. I know firsthand the feeling of watching your child in a hospital bed and feeling helpless. May you and your husband find the strength to get through this.
My prayers and thoughts are with you and your precious son.
Prayers for Grayson at our dinner table tonight. Keep your spirits up and make sure you do get some rest when he is resting. He will get through this and all of this will be a distant memory that you will tell your grandchildren about. God Bless XXOO
Oh Kristin.. my heart aches so much for you and Ray… I am praying for your family and Grayson.For a speedy recovery and healing for this little man. Pray without ceasing… we are doing that.
My youngest had this at age 2. He’s now 20 ( just turned 20 2 weeks ago) , no one would have ever known…. he’s healthy. That is my prayer for your baby.
We are sending prayers up … you are surrounded by positive thoughts and prayers. He is in the BEST hands right now.
((HUGS)) Gee
I am so sorry words cannot express the pain I feel for you.We will continue to pray for your sweet son!
xx
Anne
We are praying for Grayson’s speedy recovery and for much need strength for you and your family.
Praying for God’s strength and healing.
Our heavenly Father, please please wrap your loving arms around this precious child of God and heal him. We are not worthy of your graciousness but we love despite our sins and we know you always love us. These things I ask in your name…please also wipe away those tears and worry for his Mommy and make this all go away, leaving them with a healthy happy little boy!
Thanks for being a brave mom and sharing your story with us. I’ve seen the FB posts, but didn’t know what was really wrong. Now I can pray with specifics for Grayson and for your family. You’ll never question your strength and faith again when you’re on the other side of this. Know that we are all lifting you all up with love and light.
Oh Kristin – praying for a quick recovery for Grayson –
and will keep all of you in my prayers while you go through this ordeal………..
Much love, Suzan
Lots of hugs and prayers for Grayson and the whole family! XO
Sweet girl, your blogging family is all here for yo – we love you and are praying fervently, that your sweet Grayson will be feeling better and I can’t wait to see a picture of his beautiful smile!
Kristen,
My heart is breaking for all of you. Please know that I will keep praying for your sweet little Grayson every day and will also keep sharing your updates on facebook. Prayer is so very powerful my friend.
Blessings,
Linda
Prayers for your family. I am so sorry.
God Bless Grayson and keep him safe. I hope your little man starts feeling better quickly. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
There is nothing worse than a sick child. I know because my little girl is also sick today, but with nothing nearly as serious as what your son has. Keep posting his picture because every time I see the poor little thing’s sweet picture, I am reminded to/and say a prayer for his complete healing. He looks so sweet and pitiful. Praying for you to have strength to deal with this. I know it must not be easy. I can only imagine.
My prayers for a quick recovery for your son and for continued strength of spirit for your family.
I have been praying for your family and for God’s amazing healing hands to bring y’all comfort and that little boy of yours strength and the endurance to fight this!! Many many hugs for you!!!
Keeping your entire family in my thoughts and prayers.
I will pray for you. I will pray that as you wait, God will give you the strength to walk boldly through this….as you face what is every mother’s worst fear.
My heart is with you, Kristin.
With all of the prayers, love and positive thoughts being wrapped around Grayson and your family at this very second, I just know that tomorrow will be a better day, and that your sweet boy will be home again soon and feeling himself again before you know it! hugs and love!
My heart goes out to you and your family. As a mom I understand how much it hurts another mom see her child in pain.
Sending prayers to you and your family.
Jody
Oh Kristin, you and your family have been on my mind so much. Praying for your sweet Grayson and your family!
Oh no! My sister-in-law had Kawasaki as a child and my MIL still talks about how scary it was. I know Grayson will get better! Hang in there, Kristin!
I can’t even imagine the pain Grayson is enduring Kristin. You are all in my thoughts.
Kelly
It goes without saying that I along with everyone else will continue to pray for Grayson to heal quickly and for strength for you and Ray as you help him recover and stay strong for each other.
Grayson and your family will be in my prayers.
I am so sorry. Your Grayson will be in my prayers.
Your family is in my prayers. God bless…
You, your son, your family … are all in my prayers. My heart is heavy for you. Don’t lose hope – I’ve read that the recovery rate for this is exceptional. Praying you feel God’s grace and peace.
My 2 year old nephew is in Rady’s PICU also. I have been reading all of your posts. I have been praying for Grayson. As I commented on your post on FB. I know how hard it is to watch your child suffer. My son had cancer. We were at Loma Linda Children’s for 11 months. I hope and pray that his next blood draw RE: his arteries will be low. I will continue to pray and watch God ‘s miracle unfold on your precious boy
Blessings to you, your family and especially Grayson.
Cathy
There is a song that I listened to a lot when my son was so very sick. It is by Mark Schultz. “He’s my son.” I use to listen to it and pray. I hope you can you tube it and maybe listen.
Love and hugs!
Cathy
Praying for Grayson and hoping none of the complications come. Being a pediatrician by profession, I truly understand the hardship your going thru. Fortunately we live in a time where medicines can do miracles. Keep the faith dear
My heart and prayers go out to each of you. Can’t wait to read the post that Grayson is able to go home and be happy again. Praying that it will be soon! xxoo
Tears are in my eyes just reading this, Kristin! My heart breaks for the pain he is going through and the pain you’re going through as a mother watching it all happen. Praying for you all! Stay strong!
Liz
I’m so sorry to hear about this trying time that you and your family are going through. I wish and pray that sweet Grayson will recover soon and be on his way home. Take care. Sharon
Oh, Kristen! I’m so sorry to hear this. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.
Kristin, I’m so very sorry that you and your family are going thru this. Please know that Grayson is in our thought and prayers, and that we are all here for you and your family.
Many prayers for healing and strength being sent your way!
My prayers are with you.
Take care,
Pam
There isn’t much worse in the world than watching your child suffer and not being able to do anything about it. Praying hard and often for Grayson and for you and your family as you walk through all of this. He’s so lucky to have such a strong and loving mother to be by his side. Hang in there, and thanks for keeping all of us updated. xoxo
I came to your blog tonight to link up like I usually do, and then was heartbroken when I read about Greyson. Suddenly, anything I have to blog about seems so trite and trivial. I’m praying for your darling little boy and you and your family. I also posted this link on my FB page asking my followers to pray as well. Many hugs and prayers going out to you tonight, Kristin!
Just said a prayer for your dear son, you, and your entire family. With God all things are possible.
xoxoRosemary
Sending prayers.
I’ve been reading all your updates on FB, I’m sorry for the lack of comments. What does one say?! I just can’t imagine going through what you’re dealing with and my heart hurts for you. My goodness, the mold, your doggy and now your baby. I think it’s time for some good news. I’m so sorry, but at the same time, I’m hopeful and looking forward to this time next year when all of this is a distant memory for you. Your family is in my prayers.
I’m so sorry to hear about your son! =( I will also be praying here. I hope you feel the prayers of people on your behalf and that the Lord will give you His peace in the middle of this turbulence!
Oh Kristin, a cousin’s daughter living in Illinois had Kawasaki disease and she is completely healthy and okay now. I am positive that Grayson would be alright in no time. Our prayers cant go unheard.
Krisitn, I will pray for peace to surround your family.
Deb
I pray that the Lord will bless you and your family with strength and peace. I pray that He will heal your son. He is more than able. Our God is faithful. Pray is powerful! Life to the full, Melissa
May the Lord God lay his hand on those involved in your sons recovery and heal his pain and sickness. God bless you all.
Praying for your little guy and family, Kristin. {hug}
Praying for you, your baby and your entire family.
I am praying for your sweet boy.
My heart goes out to you. I’m praying for you and your family!
Jamie ~ Better With Age
You have a lot of friends praying for you and Grayson, including me from Australia. God always looks after the little ones. Be strong and full of faith and it won’t be long before G is home and you can put all of this behind you. God Bless you all.
Please don’t loose hope and hold on for your little boy… I can only imagine what you are all going through right now… All my wishes for a speedy recovery! Please believe…
OMG I WILL PRAY! and keep praying…
I’m so sorry that Grayson and your family are going through this. Sending positive, healing thoughts your way!
I’m so sorry to read that Grayson is sick. I checked on the Internet about the disease I knew nothing about. I hope with the help of competent doctors Grayson will recover and “come back home” as he whishes. I will keep him in my thoughts until the next update.
I am praying and will keep praying – uplifting your sweet Grayson to the Father for healing. Kristin, my thoughts and prayers are with you too, Momma – for strength and peace that passes understanding.
Oh my friend. I hope he has turned the corner! Praying and praying for your sweet boy!
Poor munchkin! Praying for a quick and complete recovery.
Hugs,
Nicole
I don’t understand God’s ways
I am always puzzled at children suffering, however I do know with enough prayers he can be healed
May God heal the pain of both of you
Prayers go up; blessings come down!!!
Thoughts and prayers to your family…Praying that you can bring him home very soon!!
God bless you all. May your son find healing and happiness soon. You are in our thoughts and prayers.
My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. I’m so sorry that you are having to go through this.
“ALL things are possible to those that BELIEVE”…keep believing! I ran across your blog today…for a reason possibly. I do believe that our God is a healer…He’s the same yesterday, today, and forever. I have just prayed for your son’s healing and for that it could be a special, quick, touch from God. I also prayed for you and your family to have peace and strength through this ‘trying of your faith’. I will continue to pray!!
Many thoughts and prayers being sent your way.
I’ll be thinking of all of you!! xoxo
Dear Kristen – I am so sorry for what you and your family is going through but pray for God’s strength for you and a peace in knowing that His hand is in the details. Love the stories of complete healing from this disease and pray this for Grayson as well. Blessings to you, Patti@OldThingsNew
Continuing to pray for your sweet boy, for complete and quick healing, pain-free days, and restful nights. Praying for strength and rest for you as well. God is good.
Sending your entire family love and prayers! Thinking of you and hope to find good news at your site soon
~ Jodie xo
Thinking and praying for your family everyday!
Sending prayers across the miles…
Praying for you and your dear family.
Praying a perfect peace will embrace you, Ray and Grayson during this time of uncertainty. Hugs!
Kelly
My heart is broken for you and I am praying for comfort and healing.
I am praying for you and this precious child of God. I will just never on this Earth understand why children, those most innocent of innocents, have to suffer. God bless you and keep you strong…and may He heal your son- xo Diana
Covering your sweet family with prayers and lifting your sweet boy up to the great healer! (((hugs)))
Praying for you and yours.. God bless!
I am praying for you all. As a mom, I feel for you. Sending positive thoughts your way.
Take care, Shelley
Oh, Kristin ~ continuing to pray each day throughout the day for Grayson, you, your husband and family. God knows our pain, He knows our hearts and He is there with you all throughout this.
big hugs, Mary Beth
Sorry I haven’t left a comment on FB, but I have been following along and praying for your sweet boy. Hang in there! God will see you all through this.
That is my favorite song. My kids make fun of me for singing it so much. Now its words have new meaning, and I will sing it loud for your Grayson. Sending you love and hugs.
Carolyn
praying and praying for your Grayson, and for you all. Strength and healing… our amazing God can work miracles. Thank you for sharing your heart with all of us, I can’t imagine what you must be feeling right now… I will continue to pray.
You, Grayson, and the rest of your sweet family are in my prayers. ~Kristie
Thank you for calling us friends and keeping us posted on what is going on. Our thoughts and prayers are with you….
hugs x
Crystelle
Thinking of you and your sweet family, you are in my prayers.
I am so sorry. I will pray that he is back home with you. I can’t imagine how afraid you must feel.
I am so sorry you are going through this with your son! As a Mom with a son with special needs I know how hard it can be at times to be strong. My prayers are with you and your son! Julia
Bless your hearts, you are going through some tough times. Prayers for you and your family.
Oh Kristin, I’m so sorry, praying for Grayson and strength for you and Ray during this scary time. May you all be back home together very soon.
I have just seen this and I am sorry that your sweet child is sick. I want you to know that I will pray. I will also praise as we see God’s healing and strength manifested in your sweet one’s body.
Sending up prayers for all of you Kristen. May God carry you.
Nothing is worse than having to see your sweet baby boy suffer. When ours was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes, I wasn’t sure any of us would get through it. I pray that the Lord will surround you with the tenderest of mercies until he gets better.
praying, kristin. love to you.
michele
I’m so sorry Kristin. I am a little familiar with this disease. I can only imagine your fear and heartache. Stay strong. I am sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.
Thoughts & prayers to your son & family!
There is nothing worse than your children being sick… I pray for you and your family to have your son back home healthy, rid of this horrible disease! Sherry 🙂
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Kristin, watching someone you love so much suffer is a terrible thing. My heart goes out to you. God will bring you through this and you will give HIM the glory. My husband and I will be praying for Grayson, you and Ray and your whole family.
Love,
Linda and Jeannie at The French Hens nest
oh my goodness! i go away to look for schools and homes and come back to this?!
i’ll check hopping over to your fb page now for an update. sheesh! i’m sending lots of prayers and thoughts your way. so so sorry!!!!! hang in there little guy and get better REAL soon!
I’m so sorry to hear this. Grayson & your family will be in my prayers.
Hi-
I wanted to let you know I understand what you’re going through. Four years ago my son was diagnosed with KD when he was 5. I saw your post today as I was waiting with my son for an appointment with his cardiologist. I love your blog and look at it often. If u have any questions about KD I would be more than happy to answer them. The disease left my son with heart complications that we are still dealing with, but we feel very grateful to live close to an amazing hospital and pediatric cardiologists. I don’t know how close you are to San Diego, but the KD symposium they have there every year is amazing. We’ll keep your son in our thoughts and prayers. -Jen Kiracofe
kristin…just coming over after a long season….
prayers for your family…especially for your son…perfect healing!
Thinking of your sweet son and family and sending prayers your way.
A good friend on mine’s granddaughter was born in an emergecy c section with no heartbeat and not breathing. She was full term and they did all they could do but she has no brain activity. She did get to bring the whole family together to celebrate and mourn her short life. I forwarded your link. The song is awesome and it is like little Arabella is saying she will wait for everyone. Thank you for sharing. Blessings to Grayson and his loving family and friends. I have been praying for him. Bertram Texas
We have a Grayson, too. I can’t imagine going through what you & your Grayson are going through. My youngest, Keller, was a micro preemie at 25 weeks so I do know the pain of having to sit by your baby’s side while they are sick in the hospital. I am praying that your Grayson will be home and healthy soon!
Sending you all lots of love! *Remember that God makes mama’s really strong!
God bless and keep you, each and every one. paryers for all of you with hopes for a speedy recovery.